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♥ Tuesday, June 9 ♥
Think i'm feeling very stressed up about everything.
Dad's condition isnt very good. Didnt tell anyone much cos i dont wanna talk about it.I guess i'm trying very hard to avoid it,been telling myself to live life as it is. I dont want to face the truth of losing my dad.
Does anyone understand it? No, i dont even think my boyfriend does.I dont even tell him that i've been moody and down because of what's going on at home. Mum's bloody stressed up, screams at everyone.Dad gets upset, i get irritated. No one's happy. But does anyone know that we're supposed to make Dad HAPPY? everyone's drowning in their own troubles that no one tries to make my dad happy.
Everyday, my dad looks super upset,worrying about my mum and her temper, worrying about his condition.

And honestly, I want to turn to him but find myself a burden and he's always busy with his things. I think i'm bottling everything up right now.
I promised to go back to help out for the up comin dragon boat race, HOPING to spend abit more time with my boyfriend, but i end up getting so stressed cos on the other hand, my mum's scolding me for not taking care of the family, and when i stay home, my dad nags at me for not exercising.i cant spend time with my boyfriend, and it doesnt help that he's always tired from training,and he has to be home early cos there's training the next day.


i somehow hate it. i really do. and i'm trying my very best.

Does anyone know how sickening this feeling is? it fucking sucks.

It sucks to be me, really.




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